Showing posts with label artist. Show all posts
Showing posts with label artist. Show all posts

Saturday, April 17, 2021

Papa: A Poem and A Short Angry Review of A Doc

 


Papa

 

No one gets you, not really. How I suffer when I hear them argue.

I loved you when you woke in Paris

while Hadley slept and you washed the Bumby bottles

and afterwards, went down for the papers

then you wrote 


You taught me everything I know.

You raised me, word by word.

I listened carefully to your Zen description

of the elephant and the lion, the fish and the sea, the boxer and the bullfight.

How the old women went up the hill in the early morning

to drink the bravery and came down grey faced.

When Pilar washed her feet in the stream, I knew I’d come home.

You named your boat Pilar. Of course you did.

 

You were truly One.

 

Because of you,

I keep my baby picture on my windowsill

to remind me of my promise.



I cannot bear to hear lesser lights talk about him. I turn into a romantic hero who unsheathes his sword and cries out, “I will cut his name out of your foul mouth!” Complaining lesser lights, dim lights, alcoholic this, alcoholic that, whined Mary Karr. ("Who are these people and why would  care what they have to say about Hemingway?" my husband asked me as we watched the doc.) Write one true sentence and then you can speak about him! I remember one true sentence of Mary Karr's from The Liar's Club:“Jim’s dick was always rock hard!” She slammed her fist on the table as she spoke. I’m paraphrasing, so maybe I don't remember it.


After seeing Ken Burn’s and Lynn Novick’s documentary, “Hemingway,” I felt brutalized emotionally. That week, my daughter gifted me a book, a small yellow volume of F. Scott Fitzgerald’s remarks about drinking, called On Booze, and I, so very traumatized, carried this book with me for at least two days, cradled it to my bosom as a touchstone, you, Scotty, you understand.


I didn’t learn anything from the Burns doc that I hadn’t already known. But, I was absolutely appalled that Burns and Novick would abandon Hemingway as a doddering old damaged paranoid drunk when he complained and was terrified of possible FBI surveillance. True fans know that Hemingway was right about the FBI, but Burns does not mention what we now know and even Hemingway’s wife, Mary acknowledged, that yes, Hoover had a file on Hemingway for years, considered him a dangerous Communist sympathizer, surveilled him, followed him, wanted desperately to arrest him. Arrêter, to stop. Here’s a good article about Hemingway and the FBI, thank you Salon, thank you David Masciotra!


I always love to watch a good doc about artists. I’m usually pretty content to bask in the glory for an hour or so, but I was very disappointed when this one skipped lightly over Hemingway’s Paris years with the artists and writers who made Paris, well, Paris! Come on! Let’s face it, what we feel about Paris began with Hemingway and his friends! I loved Sylvia Beach spreading the legend of Hemingway liberating Paris after WWII - great stuff! But, why didn’t Burns mention how Hemingway’s little boy, Bumby, called her Silver Beaches? Or that when they were poor, Hemingway washed the Bumby bottles while Hadley slept? Or that he always regretted divorcing Hadley? 


Why leave out any of the true, good stuff? 


©Patricia Goodwin, 2021


Patricia Goodwin is the author of When Two Women Die, about Marblehead legends and true crime and its sequel, Dreamwater, about the Salem witch trials and the vicious 11-year-old pirate Ned Low. Holy Days is her third novel, about the sexual, psychological seduction of Gloria Wisher and her subsequent transformation. Her latest novel is Low Flying, about two women suffering psychologically abusive marriages who find and nurture each other. Her newest poetry books are Telling Time By Apples, And Other Poems About Life On The Remnants of Olde Humphrey Farme, illustrated by the author, and Java Love: Poems of a Coffeehouse.


Within this blog, Patricia writes often about non-fiction subjects that inspire or disturb her, hopefully informing and inspiring people to be happy, healthy and free.


Monday, January 18, 2021

Wormwood or How I was Poisoned by My Martini

 


"The Absinthe Drinker" by Viktor Oliva, 1901, Prague


Wormwood. It sounds like a new western starring Brian Cranston. 


But, it’s the poison that poisoned me. Poisoned my already delicate nervous system. I remember when I had my consultation with Michio Kushi in 1975 - my husband had just been named Vice-President of the East West Foundation, a macrobiotic org, and I was asked to see Michio, our mentor and teacher, for a health consultation. I was ushered into the elegant, serious study in his old fashioned home. I sat down and faced him, a small, thin man in a dark suit and tie. He took one look at me and said, “No stimulants!” 


Outwardly, I nodded. Inwardly I thought, “Oh, dear. We’re going to have a problem.” As a writer I feared I would not want to live without coffee or wine!


If you read my blog post, Anxiety Now! You already know how I was poisoned. Martinis. A very sophisticated and elegant stimulant, loved by writers for decades. I used to have about two, maybe four a year, on special occasions, in equally elegant restaurants. But, since COVID, I’d been making my own at home. Two a night. (A doctoral thesis could be written about the comfort foods of COVID and their often terrible effects on human health!) 


Since two months of martinis, my husband, daughter and I noticed a huge increase in my anxiety that was making sleep impossible. Even when I wrote Anxiety Now! I hadn’t known exactly what had happened to me. Something kept nagging at me. Something, I thought, must be IN the martinis. What was it?


It had to be in the vermouth! I researched the mysterious, bitter, spicy vermouth, googling the ingredients - cinnamon, cardoman, ginger, cinchona, chamomile, and there it was - the same ingredient that had once been (and still was!) used to make the infamously poisonous absinthe that the French writers, poets and artists had taken to flirt with death and insanity - granted it was prepared differently - but, there it was - wormwood.


Wormwood, often called artemisia, whose side-effects are seizures, muscle breakdown (rhabdomyolysis), kidney failure, restlessness, difficulty sleeping, nightmares, vomiting, stomach cramps, dizziness, tremors, changes in heart rate, urine retention, thirst, numbness of arms and legs, paralysis, and death. 


As described on BBC Culture, “The spirit [absinthe] was a muse extraordinaire from 1859, when Édouard Manet’s The Absinthe Drinker shocked the annual Salon de Paris, to 1914, when Pablo Picasso created his painted bronze sculpture, The Glass of Absinthe. During the Belle Époque, the Green Fairy – nicknamed after its distinctive colour – was the drink of choice for so many writers and artists in Paris that five o’clock was known as the Green Hour, a happy hour when cafes filled with drinkers sitting with glasses of the verdant liquor. Absinthe solidified or destroyed friendships, and created visions and dream-like states that filtered into artistic work. It shaped Symbolism, Surrealism, Modernism, Impressionism, Post-Impressionism and Cubism. Dozens of artists took as their subjects absinthe drinkers and the ritual paraphernalia: a glass, slotted spoon, sugar cubes – sugar softened the bitter bite of cheaper brands – and fountains dripping cold water to dilute the liquor.


Absinthe was, at its conception, not unlike other medicinal herbal preparations (vermouth, the German word for wormwood, among them). Its licorice flavor derived from fennel and anise. But this was an aperitif capable of creating blackouts, pass-outs, hallucinations and bizarre behaviour. Contemporary analysis indicates that the chemical thujone in wormwood was present in such minute quantities in properly distilled absinthe as to cause little psychoactive effect. It’s more likely that the damage was done by severe alcohol poisoning from drinking twelve to twenty shots a day…”


As a student, we were told of raging artists running mad through the streets, and I confess to the urge to leap from the bed and run screaming through the house, something to the effect of “I don’t even waaaant to sleep!” But, I didn’t want to drag my family into my horror. I took comfort and still do in the fact that they were sound asleep. I was so glad it was me and not them.


The Chinese have a word for it - though it’s not exactly what I have, it’s close - they call the phenomenon, “Revenge Bedtime Procrastination” or the desire to delay bedtime while you enjoy the pleasures of light and daily activity. Something about control. But, add old age to the equation and you have the terror of death in which the darkness - which we need in order to make melatonin, that chemical that naturally closes our eyes and brings on the mystery of restful sleep - becomes death, particularly if you know you are in the last room of your life. It’s a beautiful room, but I must learn to embrace death. The movie “Dr. Strangelove or How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb” comes to mind. Even the cold assassin, Judberg in “The Edge of Darkness” feared the dark - “something about the dark,” he said. I’ve been using screen time, watching reassuring movies and shows that I have seen many, many times to lull me to sleep. I pause the scene and hold it there all night to comfort me that I am not alone. Screen time pollutes the eyes with light and tells your body to not go to sleep. I can’t help it. I need to see Carrie Bradshaw - she tries so hard - or Mary Spaulding - she’s so smart - or Olivia Benson - she’s so fearless - that they are with me - and then, I can close my eyes.


It’s a point of pride with me that Virginia Woolf was also diagnosed with a “no stimulants” delicate nervous system. She was a marvelous writer, whose prose was sheer poetry - deep, clever, courageous, profound, and beautiful. But, I don’t want to end like her. If you know her, you know that she saw “the shark fin on the horizon” and wanted to spare her family from further pain. However, though she wasn’t allowed alcohol, Virginia consumed copious amounts of stimulant in her daily tea. We all know that the English drink very strong tea and take it for everything from wet, cold feet after a walk to something to calm the nerves after trauma. Hmm. The shark is in the hen house.


I’m continuing my journey to freedom from wormwood. I tried Tylenol PM for nearly two months - it worked wonderfully! Till I got a few nasty side effects that I am still dealing with, mostly from dehydration; I couldn’t drink enough water! Now, I’m trying melatonin, which, after asking out on Facebook for help, I discovered most of my friends are already taking in 5mg to 10 mg form! I’m only using 1 mg and so far so good…like Steve McQueen says in “The Magnificent Seven” after telling the joke about the man who leapt off a four story roof; at each floor people heard him say, “So far so good!”



***Disclaimer: Patricia Goodwin does not blame or endorse vermouth. Many people may enjoy vermouth with no adverse effects. She wishes them bon appetite and bonne santé!



Patricia Goodwin is the author of When Two Women Die, about Marblehead legends and true crime and its sequel, Dreamwater, about the Salem witch trials and the vicious 11-year-old pirate Ned Low. Holy Days is her third novel, about the sexual, psychological seduction of Gloria Wisher and her subsequent transformation. Her latest novel is Low Flying, about two women suffering psychologically abusive marriages who find and nurture each other. Her newest poetry books are Telling Time By Apples, And Other Poems About Life On The Remnants of Olde Humphrey Farme, illustrated by the author, and Java Love: Poems of a Coffeehouse.


Within this blog, Patricia writes often about non-fiction subjects that inspire or disturb her, hopefully informing and inspiring people to be happy, healthy and free.


***Disclaimer: The information on this blog is not meant to substitute for medical care. Please consult your physician before beginning any new dietary guidelines. 

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Georgia O'Keeffe: Flowers are Vaginas






Jimson Weed
by 
Georgia O'Keeffe



What do you see when you look at a Georgia O’Keeffe painting of an oversized flower? Are you looking deeply into a flower or a vagina?

For decades, art critics and art lovers have been debating the question.

The new Tate Modern July 2016 retrospective of Georgia O’Keeffe will attempt to answer that question once and for all. The Tate calls the assumptions that her famous flowers paintings are depictions of female genitalia, a “conservative male” concept.

How is this interpretation specifically male? Or conservative? I think a lot of wild women would heartily agree, “Yes! Hail the Goddess! After all, feminists in the 1970s championed O’Keeffe’s work, according to Tanya Barson, Curator of the Tate Modern show, “as a statement of female empowerment.”

I like that.

Barson also defends O’Keeffe’s own denial – since the 1920s - that her paintings were in any way sexual. According to an article about the exhibit in the Guardian: “The Freudian theory that her flower paintings were actually close studies of the female vulva were first put forward in 1919 by Alfred Stieglitz, the photographer who first promoted O’Keeffe’s work and later became her husband.”

Stieglitz knew how to promote a show.

Georgia, herself, explained why she made the flowers so gigantic: “So I said to myself, I’ll paint what I see – what the flower is to me but I’ll paint it big and they will be surprised into taking the time to look at it – I will make even busy New Yorkers take time to see what I see of flowers…I decided that if I could paint that flower in a huge scale, you could not ignore its beauty.”


To quote Achim Borchardt-Hume, the Tate Modern’s Director, his hope is that the Georgia O’Keeffe retrospective will offer O’Keeffe’s work the “multiple readings” she had been denied in the past as a female artist. “O’Keeffe has been very much reduced to one particular body of work, which tends to be read in one particular way,” Borchardt-Hume said. “Many of the white male artists across the 20th century have the privilege of being read on multiple levels, while others – be they women or artists from other parts of the world – tend to be reduced to one conservative reading. It’s high time that galleries and museums challenge this.”

Like millions of people, I have been a Georgia O’Keeffe fan since I first saw her work, probably in a book, maybe as a calendar, maybe as a print on someone’s wall. It was the '60s so I’m not sure where I was or what the painting was. But, I know I must have been mesmerized.

Very few artists of any caliber can pull off the close-up of the oversized flower. In fact, I really can think of only one – O’Keeffe.

Another part of my fascination and love for Georgia O’Keeffe lies in her finding her true identity in another land far from her home. I traveled only a few miles to the rocky shores north of Boston to discover another world that seemed to be a long lost home worlds away from where I grew up. Georgia traveled thousands of miles, from her birthplace in Sun Prairie, Wisconsin, passing through crowded, nervous New York City, on to stay with artist friends in New Mexico where she felt more and more comfortable, more herself, finally rejecting her old life back in New York to make her permanent home in the vast, open land of New Mexico, the terracotta desert and the cerulean blue sky. There, she found her true self in the hot, endless space.

To me, O’Keeffe’s flower paintings need to be viewed within the context of this desert. In the desert, the importance of flowers is tremendous. Moisture is precious. Life is precious. O’Keeffe may not have meant the flowers to be genitalia, the flowers simply are genitalia. Flowers are the sex organs of plants, and, in the desert, the moist folds of the flower hold life itself.

But, I do not take the sexuality of the flower as separate from other – what did the Tate call it? Other “readings” of the work. To me, the sexuality of the flowers, the life force of the flowers, cannot be separated from the rest of life.

Take her 1932 painting of the Jimson weed, for instance, which sold for $44.4 million, the highest amount for a painting by a female artist, the Guardian tells us. Really? F**k you. Such a distinction is an insult to female artists.

Back to Jimson weed, also known as angel trumpet. Or devil’s snare, hell’s bells and devil’s cucumber. Thought to have originated in Mexico, but has a Greek and Hindi etymology (see below). Highly toxic. Hallucinogenic. Beautiful to look at, emitting a powerful perfume, also called moonflower, which opens at night and is fed upon by the night moth. The ancient inhabitants of central and southern California ingested the small black seeds of datura to speak to their gods in visions. Native-Americans such as the Algonquin, Navajo, and Cherokee also used this plant in sacred ceremonies for its hallucinogenic properties. The common name "datura" has its roots in ancient India where the plant is considered particularly sacred, and is believed to be a favorite of the Hindu god Shiva Nataraia.

The genus name is derived from the plant's Hindi name धतूरा dhatūra. Stramonium is originally from Greek, strychmos  στρύχνος "nightshade" and maniakos μανιακός "mad."

In the United States, the plant is called jimson weed, or Jamestown weed; it got this name from the town of Jamestown, Virginia, where British soldiers consumed it. They spent 11 days in altered mental states:

“The James-Town Weed (which resembles the Thorny Apple of Peru, and I take to be the plant so call'd) is supposed to be one of the greatest coolers in the world. This being an early plant, was gather'd very young for a boil'd salad, by some of the soldiers sent thither to quell the rebellion of Bacon (1676); and some of them ate plentifully of it, the effect of which was a very pleasant comedy, for they turned natural fools upon it for several days: one would blow up a feather in the air; another would dart straws at it with much fury; and another, stark naked, was sitting up in a corner like a monkey, grinning and making mows [grimaces] at them; a fourth would fondly kiss and paw his companions, and sneer in their faces with a countenance more antic than any in a Dutch droll.

In this frantic condition they were confined, lest they should, in their folly, destroy themselves — though it was observed that all their actions were full of innocence and good nature. Indeed, they were not very cleanly; for they would have wallowed in their own excrements, if they had not been prevented. A thousand such simple tricks they played, and after eleven days returned themselves again, not remembering anything that had passed.”
      The History and Present State of Virginia, 1705[38]


Now, do you get an inkling of why the flowers needed to be so huge?

Of course, the vulva contains all of the above qualities. Moist lips of the flower of life. Perhaps poisonous, perhaps life giving.

Look deeply into the spiral of the Jimson Weed. What do you see?



Poppies

Opium, soft hypnotic dream



Sweet spring sap of maple




Plums, apples, rock, pulsating with life




Can you really separate the flower from its source or from its fruit?

Note: To their immense credit, the Tate Modern will display O’Keeffe as a “‘multifaceted artist’ and will also be exploring her relationship to photography, music and the landscape of New Mexico, where she lived and worked in the 1930s and 40s and embedded herself deeply into the sprit and traditions of the area. It will open with the charcoals that O’Keeffe first exhibited in 1915 and end on more abstract river paintings from the early 1960s. Also included in the show will be several photographs that O’Keeffe’s husband, Alfred Stieglitz, took of her over the course of their complex marriage, including portraits and nudes…” (from The Guardian article, “Flowers or vaginas? Georgia O’Keeffe Tate show to challenge sexual clichés” by Hannah Ellis-Petersen, March 1, 2016.)





Years ago, after seeing a wonderful documentary of her life in Santa Fe, I was inspired to write and published this poem, “Georgia O’Keeffe” in my book, Marblehead Moon (Plum Press, 1993) I was struck by the ancient simplicity of how Georgia lived and worked. She cleaned her own house and baked her own bread. The starkness of her home reflected the stark beauty of the desert.

Thank you, Georgia O’Keeffe for your work.


Georgia O'Keeffe

The shapes of Nature repeat themselves
line may be lip or bone
round may be breast or stone
and, so unknown to her, 
her painting of shell and bone
                and flower
unfolded into the folds
of the female flower
and art sellers were amazed 
and excited - and titillated -
but, this was not an artistic striptease
not an agressive Ms. Chicago
force fed in your faces
at the dinner table
this was not by her hand
but the hand of God
The Great God of Where the Line Goes
so, the salty shell,
the desert shell,
opened a slit
an illicit slit
and the Art World
sucked in its breath
and flapped about the galleries
like birds who smash
themselves against glass
and the owners called her up

far way, in the desert, the phone rings
a blush phone in a stark bone room
always, before she worked,
picked clean of excess
an old woman, an old artist
dressed simply, in black,
walks in slowly, on a cane
she answers

the voice is frantic! she cannot do this!
she answers again
"I did not do it."
Protestations!
Evidence!
"The evidence is there."
               
                She says:
"The mountains are colors that roll above sand.

The birds fly alive
                 and dead
                 and alive again

And the road goes beyond the view."


there are censors! cries the little voice 
caught in the blush machine

The old artist cradles the troubled receiver
in a pillow, like a screaming babe

She lifts her cane and walks out
into hot silence
She paces a circle
She is a black sculpture
tracing white sand
making an Indian drawing
lines of herself on the land

When she came there
she was alone with rattlesnakes
rattlesnakes owned the property
but, the unending opened her
and out came music on to the land
violins spiralled the adobe air
horns heralded the red sun
the snakes backed under rocks
herself a source
she took in the land
breathing in huge gulps
she planted and ate and spoke the land
she curled up and slept with the land
brushed the land on her canvas
made love to the land
with colors so ancient, they seemed bold
with flowers so precious, they became mountains
with sculpted forms
waiting now in living bodies
found then in the dust by the road
recognized, they framed her view
of the sky to the sea

and in old age
hers was the face of beauty

They say old Indians
come home from the grave
and if she does
again, the rattlesnakes will make way
for, how can God answer a whining man 
                      on the phone?

the place of creation has no horizon
the place of success hangs on a wall
Nature's shapes repeat themselves
shell, vagina, flower, bone

and the maker walks round a circle 
                       in the sand
which only the ancient may understand.





©Patricia Goodwin, 2016

Patricia Goodwin is the author of When Two Women Die, about Marblehead legends and true crime and its sequel, Dreamwater, about the Salem witch trials and the vicious 11-year-old pirate Ned Low. Holy Days is her third novel, about the sexual, psychological seduction of Gloria Wisher and her subsequent transformation. Her newest poetry books are Telling Time By Apples, And Other Poems About Life On The Remnants of Olde Humphrey Farme, illustrated by the author, and Java Love: Poems of a Coffeehouse.