Deaf Ears – The Pendulum Swings

The pendulum, that motherfucker whose only purpose in life is to fuck its mother…

In a recent interview with the BBC, Supreme Court Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg tried to console us with a calming speech: “We're not experiencing the best of times…A great man once said that the true symbol of the United States is not the bald eagle; it is the pendulum, and when the pendulum swings too far in one direction, it will go back…”

The pendulum, that motherfucker whose only purpose in life is to fuck its mother has swung away from everything we worked so hard to achieve and protect: women’s rights, human rights, health care, the environment, education, the arts - and, oh, a little thing called, freedom!

Justice Ginsburg went on to repeat the quote on the Statue of Liberty, becoming herself a kind of beacon, raising the torch to light our way, “Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breathe free.” She talked about how tenuous those words were becoming, words we had always stood steadfastly by, rather like the Statue of Liberty herself.

She talked about the importance of a free press, using Watergate as an example of the kind of bravery we need to uncover the Watergate scandal and Nixon shenanigans. “That story might never have come out if we didn't have the free press that we do,” said Ginsburg. 

But, the 83-year-old jurist said the public's resistance to the new administration - on full display at last month's Women's March - has given her “reason to hope that we will see a better day.” She was right. In the days after the election, nearly 5,000 women from around the country registered to run for public office. Hope.

Back to the pendulum. 

I’ve stopped signing petitions. I stopped for one reason: They will fall on deaf ears. Perhaps not forever. But for right now, I don't see the point.

I’m not saying I was entirely hopeful when I signed petitions in the past. I knew there was a pretty good chance I was kidding myself that anyone on the receiving end of my concern was 1.) Going to give a damn, and 2.) Actually going to do something about it. But, it certainly felt that way – that there was a chance. We heard about petitions that had worked. Even one to a foreign nation that embarrassed the official to whom it was addressed so much, he initiated a change of policy. I’d seen video of volunteers from the National Resources Defense Council and The Organic Consumers Association delivering boxes and boxes of signatures to government officials. I knew one signature represented thousands to the government. These signatures were also presented in court cases and had swayed judges.

There was an excitement, a movement, a thrill of taking part in an effort to change things: to stop human trafficking; to stop abuse of human rights and animal rights; to stop U.S. Navy sonar experiments in the oceans from killing our whales and dolphins; to stop the killing of wolves, bears and buffalo; to stop Monsanto from poisoning our food; to stop fracking and drilling from poisoning our water; to stop the government from lowering organic standards and to stop the EPA from lowering pollution standards.

The EPA. My father was a foreman at a very old family stain company – staining wood, that is – in 1970 when the first EPA rep came to call. Daddy came home shaking his head, “They told me I could throw much more waste into the creek than I was already. I would never throw that much into the creek!” He was so disheartened. And, that was the EPA in its fresh-faced infancy.

I cannot sign petitions any more. I’m quite rattled by that. It’s been a black hole in my online life. The last petition that arrived in my email from my usual trusted orgs would have gone directly to the President.

What a joke! I won’t sign anything that’s going to the White House. What a waste of hope.

My advice to orgs wanting people to sign petitions: Address your petition to lower level officials – not the current President. Address your petitions to Senators, Representatives, Mayors, Governors, Directors, Board Members, any town or city official that must be elected.

In fact, I have conceived a direct mail campaign based on the Cultural Revolution’s dictum, “What if they gave a war and nobody came?” I’ve decided, and anyone may join me in this, the more the merrier, to begin a letter campaign to CEOs of major companies that might be heavy polluters of air and water if the EPA standards are lifted. I intend to appeal to their most human and practical qualities. I’ll request that they maintain their current clean air and water standards regardless of what the current government decides about the EPA. In fact, they may decide to tighten their standards. At the very least and most menial, changing nothing costs nothing.

UPDATE: 3/29/17 CEO of General Electric, Jeff Immelt is "calling on other companies to step up to fill the void that the administration is leaving behind,” as per an internal memo obtained by Politico.  Immelt threw down the climate change gauntlet: “Companies must be resilient and learn to adjust to political volatility all over the world. Companies must have their own ‘foreign policy’ and create technology and solutions that address local needs for our customers and society.” In another article, Colin Taylor of Occupy Democrats wrote: "Immelt went on to point out that innovation and investment into green technology is not only both environmentally prudent and profitable, but also a necessary evolution in today’s rapidly changing global economy."

Just what America needs! A truly benevolent, forward-thinking CEO! Thanks, Mr. Immelt!

 Let's not go back to this!

I will continue to donate to my most favored orgs: the National Resources Defense Council; the Organic Consumers Association; Polaris and The Wilderness Society – all faves because they are effective on both the national and the grass roots levels. I also like their civilized, intelligent methods. I won’t sign petitions with violent language. 

From now on, if I cannot sign and join in a petition, I’ll use my skills to write and speak, whether on this blog, on Facebook, or at poetry readings. My work has always carried my message, my mission, my faith. As the water protectors in North Dakota say, “My weapons are my heart and my words.” I shall write to protect organic standards. I shall write to protect people from slavery of all kinds. I shall write to teach people about achieving health through diet and lifestyle. I shall write to protect the environment. I shall be like Benjamin Franklin. I shall publish pamphlets if I must. I shall be like Supreme Justice Ruth Ginsburg. I shall not retire. I will never stop writing. My head will drop to the keyboard when I die. I shall be like F. Scott Fitzgerald.

I shall be like Tachia Sandoval, the woman in Colorado who used to have a clear, mountain spring running by her house and now, because of fracking, must travel miles several times a week to a water station where she uses her credit card to buy water.

Want to hear the irony? Fracking is no longer profitable. Solar, wind, and waterpower clean and sustainable sources are becoming easier, more efficient and cheaper to access than oil and gas. And, these renewable resources have more potential jobs on all levels for those concerned about jobs. That’s the good news. The bad news: Earthquakes. Many fracking wells have had to close down (good news) because of the powerful earthquakes caused by the holes and the trauma to the earth in the Southwest.

Why do oil companies and countries keep on with pipelines and drilling? There are many more pipelines to fight than the Dakota Access at Standing Rock  – here’s a list.

Oil is a dying industry, yet stubborn in its death throes. The Black Snake is not dead. But, it is dying.

Hope. Meanwhile, we write. And tell, and try to reach people.

To quote this brave woman, Tachia Sandoval, “If I can just make one person wake up, then I’m good.”

©PatriciaGoodwin, 2017

Patricia Goodwin is the author of When Two Women Die, about Marblehead legends and true crime and its sequel, Dreamwater, about the Salem witch trials and the vicious 11-year-old pirate Ned Low. Holy Days is her third novel, about the sexual, psychological seduction of Gloria Wisher and her subsequent transformation. Her newest book is Telling Time By Apples, And Other Poems About Life On The Remnants of Olde Humphrey Farme, illustrated by the author. 

It’s Thanksgiving And I’m Thinking About Nazis

The Weeping Frenchman, Paris, 1940

It’s Thanksgiving and I’m thinking about Nazis.

I was born in 1951, and WWII had ended for only 6 years. I grew up with my family talking, talking, talking about the Nazis, about privations, about war. We were Catholic, but we were Italian and the Italians had changed sides during the war. The conversation went like this:

“Would the Nazis kill me?” I asked.

“You? Ha! They would have loved you! You’re exactly what they wanted! Blonde hair and green eyes! The Italians! Now, the Italians, we would have been next after the Jews! The Italians changed sides, they changed sides.”

“But, Grandma’s Italian and I’m half Italian!” I worried.

            “Ah, next they would’ve started on people with freckles,” Daddy grumbled.

            “Do I have freckles?”

            “A few,” Mama said.

So, I would be next, after all, my expression told her.

            “Don’t worry, the Germans lost the war!” Mama laughed.

All the while they were discussing the war, what had happened, how could it have happened, can you believe it, I still can’t believe it, I could hear the glimmer of fascination and (could it be?) admiration sneaking into their voices. The cunning of the Nazis, their incredible intelligence, their power. That power. That power over my family’s lives. Over everyone’s lives. Over the world. 

Let me be clear - I'm not a Nazi. I'm a writer. Cursed to observe and write about human behavior. I was brought up in the Kennedy era to believe as The Declaration of Independence says: "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness."

Watching television as a kid, I began to see that physical perfection of the Nazi ideal, especially in the women. “Women,” I wrote in Holy Days, “were the only ones who had not escaped the Nazi ideal. You had to be perfect. Physical perfection was the minimum daily requirement.” I watched beautiful women dancing with that crumbled old creature, Lawrence Welk, and I knew. I watched beautiful women standing next to cars or refrigerators, kissing men, kissing children, and I knew.

Of course, in the ’50s and ‘60s, physical perfection was precisely defined: low forehead, large wide-set eyes, long eyelashes, pert nose and breasts, preferably impossibly large breasts, long legs, slender waistline. Blonde was the best – “Is it true blondes have more fun?” But, lush brunette was good too. In fact, some men did not prefer blondes.

Then, the Sexual, Social Revolution came and we eradicated all that. Everyone was beautiful in their own way. And, you know what, mother fucker? We fucking meant it.

The flag turned upside down and I’ve been seeing it upside down again lately after nearly 50 excruciating years of first watching the Revolution turn into disco and later into the Kardashians. Okay. All of that is okay. But, it wasn’t just a hairstyle. Or a way of dressing. It was a Revolution. A revolution in thinking, in being. 

When we studied the first Thanksgiving as kids we loved to hear how the New England natives had welcomed the settlers and taught them how to grow corn and they actually had helped the newcomers, for how could they have known what would happen next? As hippies, we celebrated Native-Americans: we learned about them, we wanted to be like them, their strength, their wisdom, their ability to live in Nature and in harmony with Nature. Now, we, as a nation, are pummeling them with high-pressure waterhoses, dogs, guns, tanks, bright light and loud noise nighttime torture techniques as they demonstrate and huddle together trying to protect their sacred lands and water. Water is Life, is their slogan. And it’s not only a Standing Rock, North Dakota Native-American fight. People in Flint, Michigan can light the water coming out of their faucets on fire and Flint is not the worst example of fracking water or poisoned water coming out of the faucets in America.

I read an op-ed written by William Kennedy Smith, himself an accused rapist, about Trump and his neo-fascist government. Smith wrote about his uncle, the immortal Robert F. Kennedy, did I mention, #WeHadGods? Robert, you might recall, if you lived through it the first time, was gunned down like his brother, another immortal, John F. Kennedy, and Martin Luther King, another immortal, gunned down, all three of whom believed in the equality of men and women, believed in America.

So, it’s Thanksgiving and I’ve been thinking about Nazis. Here is a chapter from Holy Days, about another Thanksgiving many years ago, and lessons we failed to learn that day.

My mother died on Thanksgiving. No condolences, please. She was special only to me and my family. She was one of the first angels I knew. Oh, yes. Did you know Gods and angels were flawed and beautiful?

 By the way, we’re eating Italian this Thanksgiving, in honor of my ancestors. We'll be grateful to be together.

NOVEMBER 22, 1963
THE MOMENT

What difference does it make to history or anything else where any of us were at the precise moment we heard?

      The difference is this: that was the moment we all, collectively, stopped believing.

      We stopped believing in goodness.

            Mama used to click her tongue, whenever she thought about it, in her vague, muddled way: “The Nazis fixed everything, they fixed everything, they fixed!” She was right. The Nazis made it so we could get used to anything. Someone, a man who had survived the death camps, talked once about being forced to shovel graves for the Nazis. He talked about how enormous the hole was and how cold he and the other shovellers were, how very cold. He talked about seeing a weed blowing in the cold wind and thinking how happy he was to be alive, just to see that weed, to know the weed was alive under the freezing snow and how grateful he was to feel the terrible cold because he was alive - and he knew, then, that human beings could get used to anything.

      For a long time, the Nazis were very far away. First, they were in Europe, then, they were in the past. The Nazis were not us, but we became them. We invited them in.

      From the moment the shot rang out, the Nazis, like the Devil himself, rose up from hell and rushed to our side. From that moment on, we learned to turn our heads and check our backs; we learned suspicion and fear. At first we were horrified at ourselves and then, we got used to our fear. And then, we got used to our horror. And, then, we became proud of our horror and began to wear it ahead of us, not as a shield, as a medal.

      We were so frightened by the Nazis, that we became the Nazis in order to keep it from happening to us again. We had the comfort of knowing, no matter what we did, no matter how evil, we could never be as bad as the Nazis.

      In Revere, bad had become a virtue. Bad was it. I heard of kids who wouldn’t come to Revere. That struck me as funny, because there were other cities, like Dorchester and Roxbury, where I was afraid to go, even in the car with my parents. Sometimes, bad is all there is. It starts to look good after a while. Bad makes you tough. It makes you ready.

      I was walking out of school at lunchtime. I was looking down. I always did, looking introspectively at the black tar of the schoolyard that plunged downhill, watching the bits of broken glass twinkling in the sunshine.

      Someone spoke in a normal voice: “The President’s been shot.”

      I watched as the black tar ran out from under my feet, ran backwards, ocean waves of tar sparkling with glass, running out like the ocean, pulling the earth out from under my feet, the black tar ran on and on, spinning endlessly, and I went cold with fear.

      I looked up to see everyone running, kids were running home. As though an air raid had been sounded, as though we were being bombed, kids ran for shelter.

      The President can’t be shot, he can’t be! He’s the President! That alone should protect him! He was so beautiful, so perfect! So good and fine. Didn‘t those qualities protect him? How could anyone dare? How could anyone not love him? What more could anyone want?

      I thought of him sailing as I, too, ran home and the seagulls flew after me, cawing hoarsely after me, “Dead! Dead!” He was sailing, his hair filled with spray, and also in the boat, his fine wife and children, sun-colored, flying on the wind! What more could anyone want?

      When I got to the highway, the crossing guard was crying, the tears making a trail of black eye makeup in her orange rouge. When I got home, Ma’s nose was red and swollen; her beautiful eyes were swollen with sorrow. The television was on and everyone on TV, women and men, cried openly. Men choked when they tried to speak. Daddy came home early from work. He put his head down on the kitchen table beside his beer. When he lifted his head, he rubbed his eyes over and over.

      The whole world was crying. The television was on for days. There was no school, but Ma made me watch the funeral.

      “You sit there and watch this, this is history!”

      “I can’t stand it! I wanna go to the library!”

      “The library’s not open! Everything’s closed! Look! It’s history!” She was right. The streets were deserted.

      But, I couldn’t bear it any longer. Black, black, black, the slow march of black.

      “Why don’t they wear white? Isn’t he in heaven? Why isn’t everyone happy?”

      I couldn’t imagine him anywhere else. I was sure he was an angel now.

      “Doesn’t the priest wear white for a funeral mass?” I asked.

      “Shut up and be quiet!” Ma sniffed.

      I was tired of mourning already. I’d watched the television enough! John John was saluting. They made him do that. The riderless horse frightened me. It was ghostly. I wondered if the President had ever ridden a horse. I couldn’t remember him on one, but I thought he’d look perfect. Then, I confused the lone horse with the headless horseman, and I remembered it was Jackie who’d ridden.

      I was confused for days, as the TV droned on and on, the funeral procession marched for days. John John saluted all day long, the black horse rode alone, Jackie’s suit was covered with blood, and we had a new President, President Johnson, who was a joke on the Vaughn Meader album. We’d all sat around the kitchen table, it seemed like years ago, in our pajamas. We had my little record player on the table and we laughed and laughed, as the little boy rang the doorbell at the White House and asked for Caroline. President Kennedy himself answered the door (really Vaughn Meader doing an imitation, who, afterward, refused to do another album) and told the little boy that Caroline was in Hyannisport with her mother and the little boy said, “Well, then, what’s Lyndon doing?” I’d needed it explained to me, but, after that, it was hilarious.

      And before, during the election debates, hadn’t Ma knelt down and smooched Jack Kennedy’s handsome young face on TV and didn’t she turn and press her round ass to the set, and cry “Kiss my ass!” whenever Nixon’s ugly mug had come on?

      And, simultaneously, while the funeral marched endlessly and the eternal flame burned in the dark rain, young girls were being strangled to death, one by one, because they’d trusted too much in their mutual sorrow and let the Boston Strangler* in the door.

      It was evil; evil had wormed its way into Camelot.

*Joann Graff, 23, the Boston Strangler's 12th victim, was strangled with her nylon stockings; found on November 23, 1963 in her apartment at 54 Essex St., Lawrence, Massachusetts.

Note: If you don't believe the musings of a child, please look into this book, written 45 years later by a Rhodes Scholar and well-respected author, The End of America: Letter of Warning to a Young Patriot, A Citizen's Call to Action, by Naomi Wolf, who noticed the changes in our country. Chapter titles include, "…the Fragility of Democracy," "Establish Secret Prisons," "Restrict the Press" and "Surveil Ordinary Citizens." Ms. Wolf began to realize we were on a path similar to the Germans before WWII.

©Patricia Goodwin, 2016

Patricia Goodwin is the author of When Two Women Die, about Marblehead legends and true crime and its sequel, Dreamwater, about the Salem witch trials and the vicious 11-year-old pirate Ned Low. Holy Days is her third novel, about the sexual, psychological seduction of Gloria Wisher and her subsequent transformation.